I Could Never Love You The Way That You Deserved

I never loved you,

not the way you deserved,

and how you loved me, I never knew,

but it left me unnerved.

My world was destroyed before I was an adult,

long before knowing you, my old friend,

and what I felt for you I never thought I’d have felt,

and tears poured from my eyes when it came to an end.

I held against you so many other's sins,

and some you knew somehow,

some of them just whispers in the wind.

Trust that life with you was a series of wow.

Letting go of sins is where I need to begin,

if I ever hope to truly love someone.

If I find it in my heart then maybe I can win,

and against the old ghost, I will have won.

The past is two things, and they are good and bad,

I tried to keep them both.

Doing that has hurt me, and left me often sad

because that has kept me from letting anyone get close.

I wish I could have loved you,